I write these blogs because I am trying to understand 'something'.
What the 'something' was I didn't know. Simply put, I 'feel' that
something is very wrong.
It could be me that
is wrong but I very rarely believe that. I have decided that there is
a strong link between people and society. The relationship is based
on fear. A member of society is fearful of a collapse of society
because of a fear of what other people will do without ‘authority’
to punish the ‘wicked’.
People are fearful
of a great many different things and society makes a promise to
minimise those imagined and real threats. This forms the relationship
between society and it’s members.
Now, that took forty
years of thought. I cannot really prove this theory of ‘society
being founded on fear’ because it is a belief. Only you can
question your own beliefs.
As a thought
experiment, let us simply accept that society is founded on fear and
see where that takes us. We are born and society conditions us into
accepting society by unnecessary stimulating the fear centres of our
brain. This need not be done intentionally or even excessively. The
fear need not be high, just a slight ‘niggle’ is sufficient to
gently alter the decisions of millions and billions of people.
Society is just a collection of millions and billions of people,
overly fearful people.
Some people are very
sensitive to the cumulative effects of this fear and become very
anxious. Often requiring medication and are labelled as mentally ill.
Most people are in a state of mild mental illness due to this over
active fear response. Fear being a much shorter lived version of
anxiety. Both of which burn us out and have negative effects on our
enjoyment of and satisfaction with life.
Continuing with the
thought experiment… With awareness of the overstimulation of our
fear centres, we can seek ways of reducing our general level of low
level anxiety and reducing the intensity and duration of our fear
response. As an example, regularly feeling annoyed with others,
yourself and inanimate objects is a common symptom of this ‘society
created anxiety’.
By actively seeking
measures to reduce low level fear and background anxiety, I have
noted the beginnings of changes in my perception. I no longer see the
world I saw. This means that society means something completely
different to me now. Society no longer reflects my beliefs. I am no
longer a member of society. Society fades away and I am left with the
question, what am I now?
My thought processes
have changed. The pathways in my nervous system are functioning very
differently to what they were. This will be difficult to describe
because we have no frame of reference. This is not cutting edge or
even bleeding edge. It is new. I have a thought and I consider
actioning it. Should I choose to act on this thought, the sensation
of well being is considerable. The well being increases as I make
modifications to better reflect what I wanted to achieve. Words like
‘mistake’ and ‘failure’ fade away. Phrases such as ‘not
quite right’ and ‘well, that didn’t work’ take their place.
This change in words
may seem trivial. My statement that society is based on fear may well
be ‘wrong’. However, the word ‘wrong’ is no longer part of my
thought pathways. The word ‘wrong’ is simply replaced with the
phrase, ‘work in progress’ combined with ‘something to ponder’.
That said, I will
describe how this difference ‘feels’. The higher functions of my
brain ‘feel’ synchronised with the more base functions of my
nervous system. My nervous system is not punishing me for ‘mistakes’.
My nervous system is rewarding me for being creative and trying new
things that may or may not prove to be pleasant or beneficial. I feel
the opposite of guilt / fear / worry / anxiety.
I suppose I could
say that I ‘feel free’. I do but mostly I feel curious. I feel
interested. I feel optimistic. I feel genuine concern for others but
as they have free will, I am not actually responsible for them.
I don’t believe, I
know. I was a member of society and my higher cognitive functions
were tightly linked with the fear response of my central nervous
system. I am now not a member of society and my higher cognitive
functions are tightly linked with the well being response of my
central nervous system. I don’t believe that this is a coincidence,
I know society and fear are tightly coupled based solely on my
response as detailed in this blog post.
What you know is
your own concern. ‘Know’ is not the right word. It is a remnant
from my lifelong immersion in societal conditioning. A more suitable
phrase would be, ‘self evident to me’.
The concepts
discussed in this post are neither right nor wrong. They are simply
self evident to me. I am no longer part of society but I am a
member of the human race.
I wanted to
think deeper about my new condition and I used the writing of this
post to do just that. I have been this way for less than a week but I
have seen glimpses of it throughout my life. Consistently staying in
this new mindset whilst being saturated in society will be, I
imagine, challenging. I am not particularly concerned about how I
will perform, merely interested.
Thanks for reading.
I am curious as to
what, if any, changes this internal change has on those around me. I
have no way of knowing, so we are back to belief.
Do you believe that I am right? Wrong?
Could I be right? Am I nearly right?
I am simply curious.
Perhaps give yourself some time to critically think about whatever you wish.
Catch you later